Lidocaine

I've learned another trick for dilation that I wanted to share with you.  My doctor prescribed lidocaine because I have had painful sex, usually upon insertion.  This only started happening with my last boyfriend and it was really painful for the first few minutes.  I know he felt bad about the pain.  Once inserted and a little rhythm going, it stopped.

When I went to the doctor for my checkup last year, she prescribed me the lidocaine.  She told me to put it at the opening and use it for that initial insertion.  The numbing nature of this made me think about the guy, and I would think that the guy should probably be wearing a condom when using this (so he doesn't get numb).

I haven't used the lidocaine for sex, but I am using it for dilation.  Insertion of dilation, depending on the angle, can be very painful as well.  I have been putting the lidocaine around the edges of my vagina, then using my vibrator dilator covered in Astroglide for the dilation.

If you have any pain, this may be a solution that works for you too.

MRKH and Warts, Part 2

So my disgusting plantar wart is not gone yet.

I decided to go to the doctor again because through my HMO, I had to get a new one since my other had retired.  This was also a good excuse to get to know her a little.

When I went in, I experienced much of the usual process.  Weight, temperature, blood pressure...all fine and dandy.  Then we went back to the room and the medical assistant started to put in my vitals into the computer.

She asked me then about my periods and about why I don't get them.  I told her I was not born with all of the parts.  She told me that wasn't an option in the computer and politely proceeded to continue to fill out my vitals.

I was thinking right then that it was somewhat offensive on the part of the medical community to not have an "other" fill it in option for not having a period.  Not an option, really?  It wasn't my choice to be born this way either.  I'm not frustrated with the medical assistant, she was politely doing her job, but  the continual reminders and questions upon receiving medical treatment (for a wart nonetheless!), is hard.

I've spoken my peace tonight.

Right Round

You spin my head right round...

That song's playing on my Pandora music station right now.

I would say that my head is definitely spinning around right now.

I'm reading the book Middlesex right now and it's about a hermaphrodite and the development of his family that led to his sexual organs developing the way they did.  I think that those with MRKH questioning sexuality, or just exploring societal expectations of sexuality would find this book super interesting.  I found the first 25 pages hard to get into but now that I am, the book is flowing.  I feel like I relate to the main character in the book seeing all of the assumed roles in sexuality and feeling like it's so misunderstood.  I really feel that sexuality is a continuum.  There are pure heterosexuals at one end of the spectrum and at the complete other side are pure homosexuals.  A huge portion of the population falls somewhere in between those two continuums.  I feel more toward the male end of the spectrum but also find some females attractive.  I don't think we're all wired to be completely one way or the other and society in general has a difficulty with the middle ground.  The absurd part is that a lot of us are in the middle of it all.  My MRKH has caused me to question sexuality often and to be accepting of whoever anyone likes, or the community that each identifies with.

What are your thoughts?