August is my lucky month. I met someone on Labor day weekend and it's going really well. We met through a colleague of mine. He's younger than me but I'm finding that I'm into him and he's into me.
We have not had sex, yet...Not sure if I am going to go there but I want to be ready if I do.
So I'm dilating again. I haven't had sex in nearly a year. I wasn't overly deep and I want to work on that. I remember the pain for the first times and upon entrance, the vaginal walls ache. I think that my gynecologist told me that she had something she could give me for that. I think I am going to ask for that. I'd also like some Xanax but I don't think that I am going to be getting that.
I have lots of things to work through in my head...like the fact that everyone is different and we have to communicate what turns us on...but some of that is really hard for me to do. Sexual communication is almost a foreign language for me.
This guy I am dating was telling me the other night that he was watching the 40 Year Old Virgin movie. He said that he believes there are people out there like that. I feel pretty darn close when it comes to sex.
So for the next month or so, my vibrator is getting used to prepare me so if I feel right about it, I have the option to have sex without much initial pain.
:)
Fun times.
I also have MRKH.
ReplyDeleteIm looking into starting the dilation process... but it just feels so scary and im not sure where to start.
Hi there...it's an emotional journey...but I contend that it's better to start younger than older. Have you found a doctor yet?
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