Time to Let Go

Periodically I search YouTube videos for new ones on MRKH.  This one was posted by Death By Glitter.  I really like the range of issues and emotions conveyed on this video.  She did a great job describing so many of the issues I personally have felt, and I am sure you have too.  Take a look and I am sure you will be moved.  It's MRKH life.

On other news, my dating prospect is practically over now.  Back to the drawing board if that's what you call it.  Back to nada, but that seems to be okay for now.

MRKH Revelations to Yet Another Man

So this weekend I revealed to the guy I am dating about my MRKH and it's ramifications.

He didn't really think it was a big deal.  However, he did make a comment that he may want to have his own kids because he likes to play with them...be a big kid.

It still feels like a big deal to me.

The levels of complication I feel this causes for relationships is what bugs me--

• Effects the present--sex is challenging because I don't feel confident in it due to my MRKH, religious background, and life timing.  Sex isn't free for me.  I think sex comes with a price.
• Effects the future--no biological family in my future...adoption is an option but as time goes by seems less appealing in a lot of ways.

Guys are strange in their reaction.  I never know how to tell them but it's such a part of me that I feel that I need to do this.  I think for the right person, it will not be a big deal but there will be empathy for the life journey.

I feel naked after I have told another person about it.  Very vulnerable and I don't like that. 

After this revelation, I'm waiting for his full reaction.  So far, he's stuck with me and it's not deterring us.

We shall see what the future brings...more to come...