Friday night I had a dream
that I was PREGNANT.
Out of wedlock.
I felt ashamed, I didn't know what I was going to do, I didn't know what my family was going to say.
I didn't know how this was going to work out, I wasn't supposed to be able to have kids.
I just felt sheer panic inside. I didn't know what I was going to do.
Then I thought, oh yea, I could have an abortion...
Then I thought, I probably should have an abortion.
Because the baby would have nowhere to grow.
I don't remember much more--I woke up shortly thereafter.
But I still hurt about this. The idea of the baby right now bothers me, and how close it felt, how possibly true it was...
It's still traumatizing me.
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Have you ever had this dream?
that I was PREGNANT.
Out of wedlock.
I felt ashamed, I didn't know what I was going to do, I didn't know what my family was going to say.
I didn't know how this was going to work out, I wasn't supposed to be able to have kids.
I just felt sheer panic inside. I didn't know what I was going to do.
Then I thought, oh yea, I could have an abortion...
Then I thought, I probably should have an abortion.
Because the baby would have nowhere to grow.
I don't remember much more--I woke up shortly thereafter.
But I still hurt about this. The idea of the baby right now bothers me, and how close it felt, how possibly true it was...
It's still traumatizing me.
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Have you ever had this dream?
I had this dream once, it made me sad to wake up and realizing it wasn't at all possible
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